The Mysteries of Life & Death have never been so vivid within my consciousness at any other time in my life. Upon learning of my brother Ted's death this week, the Mysteries have firmly planted themselves in my awareness, begging for answers, probably as a part of my struggle to give Ted's death meaning my subconscious can accept. Even when my mother died I was not so taken with the total bewilderment of loosing someone so close to me. How could Ted have been here one moment, alive & breathing, & then in the next moment be so utterly gone? Where did Teddy go?
I can't tell, is my soul completely separated from him now & is Ted lost to me forever, or is my soul simply soaring in celestial places looking for where my brother went, trying to merge with his spirit once again.
Now I must say goodbye to both my mom & my 1st brother. May you two be together, resting in peace and love. Save a place for me too! It will be a while before I can join you.
I may edit this as entry as time brings more images to me that help me heal.
As always, my blogs are also entered in Myspace & Tribe.net. I originally started blogging in Myspace but because Myspace regularly drops my older Blog entries I started entering my blogs here & in Blogger.
